Open the Eyes of My Heart

Before I started this blog, I sat and wondered what in the world should I write about... Then I meditated on God, listened to some gospel and got the answer.. This blog may open your eyes or it may not, but if I touch at least one person I've accomplished my goal.. I've been in situations that I KNOW God can use me to speak to you, and that is what I am going to do.. Not too long ago God gave me a purpose, and this goes with it..

Some people stay in relationships because they feel that they always need someone next to them. A lot of people are out here lonely.. Maybe your dad or mother wasn't there, maybe you've lost someone close to you and you needed to fill that void. Some people deal with no good men and women because they have settled.. You ask yourself everyday why do you even bother with this person.. I asked myself this question a few times in my past relationships, but I stayed anyway, which most people do. You get sign after sign after sign that they aren't for you.. You may even pray that God sends you a sign, He does but you ignore it. Then do you know what happens? It only gets worse. He wants to save you.

There was a time when I broke up with one of my exes because he cheated, I debated on going back and that very night God came to me in a dream and asked me who was I going to choose? Him or my ex.. The dream was clear to me that while I was with my ex, that was exactly what I was doing, choosing my ex over Him the entire course of the relationship. There were times when my ex would talk me into things I knew wasn't right in God's eyes, but I did them anyway. Therefore I was choosing my exes wants before God's.  After a break up with another ex, that I felt was my fault God came to me in another dream, showing me that the guy was still growing in Him, and telling me that He had someone better for me and to trust Him..



I am not going to go on about everything in my past relationships, I just want to put it out there that I know how it feels to feel lonely, unwanted by the person you love. I know how it feels to look for love in all the wrong places, like the arms of men who don't even care for you like you think they do at the moment..

A man that truly cares for you and loves you will NEVER: put his hands on you, call you out of your name, rape you, throw dirt on your name, he won't introduce you as his "friend", he won't keep you guessing, he won't intentionally hurt you, he won't lead you on, call your beliefs stupid, make you do something you don't want to do etc... We all KNOW the signs of a person that's playing games, whether we choose to believe them or not. This goes for BOTH men and women..Let me tell you something, when a man/woman tells you that he/she is not ready for a relationship, BELIEVE them, it will save you a whole lot of heartache.

Let's compare the situations we are in to what love actually is... Picture (truthfully!) what the kind of love you and the person you are with have in your head for a moment.. Does it match this:

⁴ Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud ⁵ or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. ⁶ It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. ⁷ Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. (1 Corinthians 13) 

..If it does, GREAT!!! But if it doesn't WHY ARE YOU SETTLING? 

 There is someone better.. 

There is God's best for you! 

Put your heart into God's hands and He will place your heart in the hands of a man/woman who is worthy!... Imagine a man/woman loving you like God loves .. Who doesn't want that?

God hates to see us angry, upset, hurting.. Picture this, say the one you are madly in love with is hurting and there is NOTHING you can do about it because they won't come to you. You are constantly trying to get them to come to you, you tell them you can help but they push you away and end up getting hurt worse than they already were... That will hurt you! How do you think God feels when you do this to Him? When He sees you are hurting but you don't come to Him... 




GOD WILL FREE YOU from the hold that particular person has on you! 



Learn to differentiate God's voice from satan's..  Don't listen to the devil:

"He's the one, how can you let go of the one?" "There will never be a guy better than him." "He told you he would never hurt you like the others but he did.. You don't wanna go through this again do you? All guys are the same. Don't trust that there is someone better." 

The devil put this in my head before.. and I thought about it everyday for two months.. Then after two months I got myself together and asked God to free me from the hold my ex had on me, and He did, but STILL, I was not free from the hurt I had, because even though I prayed, I did not truly believe in my heart that I would have the gift of true love. I figured that I would never find it. I figured that I would rather be single forever than to take the risk of getting my heart broken again. 

After speaking with a friend, I realized the things that I said were not words that came with trusting God! Whenever I did things my way, they ended badly.. I have to do it God's Way. He is the BEST match-maker! ..and last night I finally did something that I was afraid to ask God for: To free me from the hurt of a broken heart. I prayed that He would change my heart, and take away the fear I had to be truly loved. 

1 John 4:18 
There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. (NIV)

I am free. I have faith in God and mentally He captured me, He stays in my heart and day after day I realize why I went through the things I went through... To get closer to God. You have to understand that when you put people or things before God, they will be taken away. No idols! When God is kept first, everything will fall into place. Learn to listen for His voice.. God will NEVER leave you alone. Even when you push Him away I know you still feel Him tugging.. You just have to trust that when you run to Him He will take care of you! 

Give your burdens to the LORD, and he will take care of you. He will not permit the godly to slip and fall.  -Psalm 55:22

Bitterness, dysfunctional relationships, whatever you are dealing with You can be free.. Rest in the Lord.. I wish I can play back every thing I have been through and show you what God has done for me once I fully trusted Him.. Building a relationship with God was and is the BEST thing that I have ever done! No doubt about that!!! There is healing in Jesus!

Once you give your problems and life over to God just watch what happens.. watch what He does! Put away your pride, run to Him!

Philippians 4:6-7
Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.